Be Yourself.

Assalamualaikum hi! :D i know its been a looong time since i last updated my blog! I'm kinda busy lately.. @.@

Ok lets just move on to our topic for today. Be yourself. Yea.

So this topic keeps crossing my mind and i think it is interesting somehow. Be yourself. We often hear that words. To be yourself is easy, but i just wanna share whats on my mind here. For me, being yourself is not something that you've to stick on with. You know what, you can't just assume that when you're being yourself, you are actually having your own stance. Sometimes, being yourself is something you've to be careful about. Because, if being yourself doesn't show that you're a nice person, muslim/muslimah, or anything synonyms with it, you've to change. Yes, change yourself. 

We can see lots of people out there saying bad words, or do bad things, and they say they're actually being themselves. Now i ask, what do you think about them? Is it a correct way to be yourself when you do bad things? I know people make mistakes. So do i. That's why, we have to change. Change to be a better person, a better slave of Allah swt. 

Lets see..ok this one thing just came up from my mind.. Last tuesday I opened my askfm and i got something like this "You don't have to replicate other people. Just be yourself" haaa camtu kot, if i'm not mistaken. After thinking for about 30 mins, i then decided not to reply what the anon sent to me. Because i had no idea how to respond to that kind of things. Like, what should i say? Thank you for advising me? Or should i say that i'm honestly being myself? So yea here i am. I hope you read this and get my answer :)

I wanna share what i think about being myself. Honestly, i'm really not a nice person backthen. When i was in form 1, i had a fight with my seniors. When i was in form 2, i rarely went to school. There were so many reasons why. And i nearly got a warning letter from school. Firstly, what i wanna say is, when i was at that kind of ages, i really thought that i was being myself and no one could stop me from being myself until i realized that it was actually a wrong way to be myself when i was in form 3. Yes. When i was in form 3, i got a lot of inspiration from different people. At that time i really wanna change myself, so i tried--stop saying bad words, stop cursing & stop doing bad things. I tried my best & that was when i felt really close to Allah swt. But then i often asked myself, "am i being my true self right now?" Because it seemed like i was replicating someone and suddenly trying to be good in front of people. 

And honestly i got the answer by myself when i was in form 4. You know what, when you try to change yourself to be better, you're actually practising to put all the positive vibes in yourself. With all the positive vibes you have, you can be your true self. Trust me, its not being yourself, but being your true self. And that's when some people say you're not being yourself. Because what they see is, you've changed. You are no longer being the old you. They think that you're trying to be nice in front of other people. But the fact is, they didn't realize how much you've tried to change yourself. And they didn't see that you're actually trying to be better, not trying to look good in front of people. You see that? Don't get yourself wrong when you're trying to apply good attitudes from the people you adore into yourself. It's indeed a beautiful way to change yourself. 

I guess thats it for now! Thank you for spending your time reading this :D I'm sorry if my words hurt you, i didn't mean to! May Allah swt put barakah in your time. Goodbye, Assalamualaikum! :)