The Painful Facts- Physical Appearances

Deep inside, it hurts. Because honestly, i do care about this thing. Why must 'judging & making fun of other people according to their physical appearances' exists in this world? It breaks my heart into pieces. I swear. Wanna know the "painful facts" are? Here: Hitam gemuk je tak cantik/handsome, putih kurus je cantik/handsome. See...ini semua mengarut. For me, semua org ada kecantikan dia yg tersendiri. Beauty is not only can be seen in physical appearances. I know it really hurts people yg ada imperfect physical appearance. Mcm biasa, bila gemuk dijadikan bahan lawak. Bila hitam dipanggil itu ini. Kalau org tu mmg tak kisah, then thats okay. But kita taktau the truth, apa yg dorang rasa. And from my perspective, actually it does hurt people yg ada better physical appearances too. I have this one friend of mine, which dia ni mmg handsome, and sooo friendly. But mcm mana some people tengok dia? "Eleh handsome bolehla buat kawan" "Tahulah handsome, tak perlulah ckp dgn semua perempuan. Nampak sgt playboy". That's so rude... People should not be thinking like this. Another example is, bila org yg kulit gelap ni kena ejek. And bila dah kena ejek or jadi bahan org, dia mula fikir "Putih jela yg cantik" "Putih jela yg dpt attention". No. Thats not how it should be. This thingy can be looked from many perspectives. Korang boleh bayangkan korang jadi someone yg ada nice physical appearances, and korang boleh bayangkan korang jadi someone yg ada not-so-nice physical appearances. Both sides, can get through this kind of silent pain. For some people yg ada nice physical appearances, mmg la dia happy. But ada org yg taknak pun nak bangga diri dgn physical appearances dia. "Cantik bolehla" "Putih, siapa je tak suka". That hurts. That really hurts, to be honest. I really don't know how to explain this thing but do know that everyone's beautiful in their own ways. Physical appearances are not long-lasting, after all. Appreciate people. Think before you speak.

Its Been Hard

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum and well, hi everyone! Umm can i just go straight into our topic right now? Because i think its too cliche for me to say something like "its been a long time since blablabla.." Isn't it? Hahaha admit it!

Its Been Hard

Well i'm not really sure writing this is a good idea because not everyone can understand what i'm gonna say.. But nah, i still can give it a try right? Hehe. So basically today's topic is actually about perspective; how many people judge someone by looking at their past, by looking at their sins or wrongdoings. And i think its better to put some desperate words as the title because its been hard, for someone who wants to be good or do good, but they think they can never be, just because of others' perspectives towards them. You get me? Okay cool, lets get deeper now.

It's so unacceptable if people judge someone by their past. Look, if you see someone sins today, you better don't look at them as a sinner tomorrow. Why? Because you'll never know if they've regretted their wrongdoings, and repented to God that night. Even if they didn't, but still, don't look down on them. It will just make you look even worse. Okay, what i'm gonna point out here is, don't you think its too harsh for them to receive this type of judgement? Like they want to be good after all, but its just too hard, it doesn't go really smooth because people keep looking at them as a bad person. I think its just like second chances. Some people don't really believe in second chances, and some people think second chances are better. Well for me, we all deserve second chances. Imagine you do something wrong and people keep babbling about it. You'll definitely feel down and think like "Am i that bad?". Or maybe you'll fight for your own rights. Here, second chances play the role. Will you be forgiven? Will people still believe in you like before?

You know what? From my own perspective, many people can never stop judging others because we all know that they're human just like everyone else. So its been really really reaaallyyy hard for someone who wants to do good but is surrounded by those kind of people. If they say they can be a leader, people will just look at them like "Really?" "You?" "Leader?" "If that then you're gonna destroy this company!". If they say they can finish all the assignments by themselves, people will be like "Nah" "You'll never do that" "You never finish your works before!". Can you see the struggle they put to be better? If they say they can lead you, believe in them. And if they say they can finish all the works, then believe in them. Motivate them. "I believe in you" "If its getting hard, we're still here for you" "Goodluck then, i know you can do better". Is it hard to give good thoughts towards them? They're still human, they have feelings too. If they're not trying to be a better person, then why do they think they can be a leader? Why do they think they can finish their works? When they know there are other people they can depend on? Just..please, don't look down on them just because they always had arguments before, they always made fun of other people before, they always came late and didn't finish their works before. Its all about past. Unless they're still playing and didn't change for good until now.

I know everyone has their own problems or challenges that need to be faced.. But here, the situation is different, in which some people just cannot change because they think like if they do something better, others will still look down on them, others will still judge them by their past, others will still look at them like the old them, others will still not believe in them. "You don't need to care what people think of you". It looks easy for some people, but indeed not all of us can do that. So whats now? Everyone should be respected. Even when you're with your friends, you still have your limit in which they should respect you, am i right or am i right? It's sooo difficult for me to explain these things, but somehow i think its necessary for me to send out this kind of message. I feel really bad looking at someone who faces something like i said before. They really want to be a better person. They really want to make their parents proud of them. And they really want to give their best, in everything they do. Can we give them another chance and believe in them instead?

I still feel like expressing my mixed feelings right now but.. to put it in words is hard. Because sometimes it depends on the situation. Like if someone say they'll never do blablabla, but they still end up by doing the blablabla again, then whats the point of giving them another chances? Unless they really regret with themselves. Well I think thats all for now, i'm sorry if my words hurt any of you. Thankyou for reading this blogpost of mine. Really appreciate.

The Best of UPM #ASPerXII

Weipp! Assalamualaikum & hi! I knowww its been a looong time since i last updated my blog. I was so busy with my studies; assignments, self-study, presentation, examination, etc...so many things to be focused on! But Alhamdulillah everything went well and now i'm undeniably happy to say that i've survived my one sem here in UPM. Hehehe. So now, here i am, on my way to update my blog for you readers :p

To be honest, i really wanted to make a blog post about UPM since i first came here but time didn't let me to :( Now dah cuti seminggu ni baru ada masa nak update blog hahaha i'm glad! #SyukurSelalu

The Best of UPM #ASPerXII 

Most parents will surely be like "Besarnya UPM!" kalau first time masuk sini. Betul kan? Hahaha. Ok first thing first, i wanna talk with you guys about Foundation of Agricultural Science here. I know there are still some students yg kalau boleh mmg taknak masuk sini. Why? Its just because of the words "Agricultural Science". Sains Pertanian. Petani moden ke? Hahaha no la, people should actually open their mind, yes we do study about Agriculture here in UPM but that doesn't mean we only will be working in the agriculture field. We can also be a successful doctor, engineer, lecturer, scientist, accountant, pakar vet & so on sbb asasi sains pertanian ni sama je dgn asasi sains kat universiti lain. Its just that we have an additional subject which is Agriculture.

At first, i was kinda afraid if i couldn't deal with this subject sbb "pertanian". Something that i didn't have interest in. At all. But now, for me this subject is really something. Its not that hard, subject ni la yg korang boleh depend on for a better pointer and its actually really fun! Every week, akan ada sehari untuk lecture, which waktu ni la most students akan tiduq lena dalam kuliah hahaha, and akan ada satu hari lagi untuk practical class. Practical class ni la yg best nya sbb masa ni la dapat lupakan stress study, dapat eratkan lagi hubungan dgn kawan kawan kuliah and dapat experience banyak benda baru, trust me!

Aku ni sebagai one of foundation students kat sini nak cakap sikit la yg Agriculture is a business :) You'll have a better understanding of that phrase kalau korang study pasal pertanian. Mungkin waktu ni korang akan realise (like me..omg i'm so lame haha) yg pertanian pun boleh buat korang jadi billionare, boleh buat korang berjaya. Even though i know i wouldn't choose this subject to further my study masa degree nanti, i will still respect anyone yg minat pertanian. So, for anyone yg pandang rendah dgn pertanian, drop your expectation. Sbb pertanian lah korang dpt makan nasi sekarang tahu? Ni yg aku emo ni hahaha.

What it feels to be one of ASPer-ians? To be honest, i think its really a great blessing. I'm glad i chose to be here. I'm happy with my decision. Yea, mmg sometimes ada je benda yg tak kena, but thats life. Ada masa kita kat atas, ada masa kita kat bawah. And to survive here in UPM, kita betul betul kena pandai guna masa sbb ada 3 sem, and dalam 1 sem tu examination dia dekat dekat je. I know ada yg pressure study but like my mum always says to me, "Asasi mmg pack. Degree nanti boleh la rehat rehat sikit". So tak kisahlah kat mana pun, we still need to study well for our own sake. Kalau nak UPM simpan tempat untuk kita masa degree nanti, show them we're worth that seat. Ceh cakap mcm dah pro je padahal baru habis 1 sem kat sini hahaha i'm sorry, i'm just sharing what i feel to be here xD

I know some of you guys will be like "promote UPM ke?" hahaha but nope, the reason i'm writing all these things is i wanna show to people the other side of UPM. Its sunshine is not blocked by the word 'agriculture', but the narrow mind of few people, their thoughts of agriculture. We should actually be proud of UPM, mmg pertanian no1 but that doesn't mean they cannot produce first class students yg boleh jadi doktor etc. Sometimes kalau kita tak minat pertanian pun, kita still boleh buat pertanian ni sebagai back up plan kita. Business. Tak perlu fikir kalau dipandang rendah, apa yg penting, diri kita. Be a successful person. Don't let other people decide who you wanna be.

So anyone yg dpt UPM nanti tapi tak yakin, i suggest you to just grab this precious chance in your life and enjoy it :) I'm proud to be one of ASPer-ians, byk experience baru and Alhamdulillah so far ok je kat sini. Kawan semua ok, gila gila tu macam biasalah kan hahaha. I hope i could survive the whole sem kat sini, and insyaAllah dapat sambung degree sini. Do pray for my success! Sebenarnya ada banyak lagi benda best nak share, tapi nanti panjang pula post ni hahaha. I'm sorry if my words hurt you, i didn't mean to do that :/ Ok bye, Assalamualaikum! :D

Patience

When i was a kid, i used to dislike 'some' people around me that i thought they would be a troublemaker in my life. Doesn't matter if that person is one of my friends, or teachers, or whatever. If they didn't appreciate me enough, or did something bad behind my back, i would stay away from them. I wouldn't talk or chat with them. I wouldn't go out with them. Etc, as long as i could stay away from them.

But as time passed by, i realised that its not even their faults to make us hate them. Indeed, who loves to be hated? Sometimes, people just don't realise when they're hurting us. And sometimes, they don't even know that their words or actions can hurt us so badly. But i'm here not to tell you that you should stay away from people like these. What i'm gonna tell you is, be honest. If you hate they way they treat you, tell them. Tell them to treat you better. Be brave and don't run away from them. Because people who test your patience is a blessing.

And without them,
        you can't practise patience.

Watch Your Words

Assalamualaikum & hi!

Actually the reason i'm writing this right now is.. I just..don't really like when some people drag someone down by leaving such negative comments on their social medias (in public). Well i've read lots of rude comments people said to someone on social medias; doesn't matter if their intention is either to make someone be a better person or to make someone feels down. 

My point here is, if..if you say something bad to them on their social medias just to make them feel bad about themselves, you shouldn't. You're just gonna make yourself look like a really desperate person, or should i say.. You're just reflecting how bad you are, as a human being in this temporary world. If you ever feel better watching them falling..you should realise that your heart is getting darker. And your distance with God is just getting further, and further. Is that what you really want? Be better. Don't let your sins silent your heart from calling The One Up There. Before you say something to people, think. Think wisely. Because you'll never know if they're gonna take your words seriously. Even if you're just joking. And don't ever complain that they're not being sporting etc, because we're all different. The limit of patience in each of us..they're different. 

But if you leave comments in public, saying that they should change themselves for their own good, God bless your kind soul. But.. Why don't you just message them in private? And..why must in public..? Even though you're doing that just because you want them to be a better person, think. Think wisely. If there's someone reprove you in public, saying that you shouldn't do this and that, how do you feel? I mean, lets be honest here. If it was me, i wouldn't feel angry towards them. Instead i would thank them for remarking me to be a better person. But at the same time i would feel disappointed, like, is it hard to just reprove me in private? And i don't think you all are gonna do the way like i do. See..because we're different. Sometimes, you need to know how to help someone to be better. I mean, they way you reprove them. Use the correct way. Use positive words instead of negative words. You don't know..how that person has tried their best to be happy, how that person has tried their best to not fall.. And you don't even know, if that person cried all night long, just because of your words. 

No offense. But i admit sometimes it looks like social & mental bullies to my eyes. Its not that you can't reprove someone to be a good person, its just that.. You should know.. Sometimes people take your positive words negatively; because they didn't even look at the brighter side. And sometimes people take your words too deep that they can even kill themselves because of those words. You should know the better way to reprove them. And not to forget, if you..really want to see them in Jannah, you should make du'as for them. InsyaAllah Allah will ease everything for you, and for that person. You know.. Its good to know that God helps them to be better..through your prayers. 

So lets be better! As a human being, i know i also make mistakes, and i know, sometimes my words are (maybe) harsh for you to accept. But i didn't mean to make you feel down. I'm sorry. To anyone who's reading this right now, i'm genuinely sorry if i ever hurt you. Intentionally and unintentionally. May your heart filled with so much forgiveness, more than the stars in the sky. May Allah swt bless your life and protect your pure heart. Amin! So thats all for now. Sorry again..if my words hurt you. I'm just saying what i feel. Because it's hurting me..to see someone feels bad about themselves just because of some negative words they receive. And it actually makes my day, to finally get to write about this topic that some people might take it easy.. Ahh! Anyway thanks for your time reading my blog, appreciate that a lot! Bye! Assalamualaikum! :) 

That-rawwrrr-customer!

Well, ehem.

Assalamualaikum & hi! Dah lama tak update blog, its been like a month i guess..since i last updated my blog xD I just had no time to make a new blog post since i was working before. 

So last thursday was my last day working at JUWITA weddings, Aeon Big. Berat je hati ni nak tinggalkan dorang semua masa tu :') And at that time i kept telling myself that kitorang still boleh jumpa bila bila nanti. InsyaAllah :) Nasib baik dapat tahan air mata masa tu! Hahaha xD

Aku ingat lagi masa aku awal awal masuk kerja, kak erna ada cakap yang kerja ni banyak main perasaan je. So mula mula aku cam...krik krik.. Hahaha! And tibalah satu hari niiii...aku kena marah dengan satu customer ni. Canni, mula mula dia mintak gabus yang panjang, katanya dah carik tapi takde. So dia tanyalah camna nak buat gabus panjang. Aku pun jawab jela "biasanya designer akan beli gabus yang besar and potong je ikut size macam mana dia nak". Aku jawab cemtu je sebab i thought dia dah carik. So aku fikir cam "oh habis stok latu" kk :/

TIBA TIBA ANAK DIA JUMPA GABUS PANJANG DEPAN MATA JEEEEEEEE xD Mak dia pun cakap la kat aku "Ni apa? Bukan gabus panjang? Tak nampak ke?" ZAPPPP menusuk terus ke jiwaku ini...hahaha! Aku pun diam jela..

Actually yang tu aku tak kisah lagi. Yang menyedihkan aku tu bila dia amik lace untuk lilit kat keliling dulang dia. Pastu lepas dia dah try lilit tu dia tunjuk la kat aku panjang mana lace yang dia nak pakai tu. Dia pun tanyala "berapa meter ni dik?" Aku pun dengan yakin jawab "satu meter". And then dia tak caya. Katanya takut je kurang dari satu meter. Aku pun katalah yang kat sini paling kurang pun boleh amik satu meter je. TIBA TIBA DIA MARAH. Dia kata "yela! Satu meter pun try jela ukur pakai pembaris tu!"

Aku pun ikut jela cakap dia *amik pembaris, ukur panjang lace tu*. Yap! Satu meter. Fuh lega. Yang zapp nya bila aku tengah ukur lace tu pakai pembaris depan dia, dia boleh lagi cakap  "haihh geram betullah aku dengan dia ni!". Ya Allah sedih sangat time tu xD Tapi aku diam je. Lepastu anak dia sempat lagi gelakkan aku :( Terus sehari tu aku badmood. Nasib baik ada shaf, hilang rasa sedih aku kat tempat kerja :') 

Betul cakap kak erna, memang main perasaan. Bukan nak kutuk customer ke apa, tapi aku macam ya Allah kenapa ada customer yang garang ceni :< takut aku nak layan x( Tapi selama aku kerja ni Alhamdulillah customer yang aku layan mostly baik baik & mesra :D Hehe. But apa apapun yang penting, bila kerja ni kita kena sabar layan customer. And kena senyum selalu. Kang nanti monyok je customer pun cabut xD

Ok la tu je untuk harini. InsyaAllah aku akan update lagi blog lepasni hehe. Sebenarnya ada banyak lagi nak cerita. Pasal kaknies semua. Tapi takpelah, lain hari nanti insyaAllah :b Best jugak tulis bm ni, cam tengah bercerita dengan kawan xD Kekeke ok bye! Assalamualaikum! 

Galphaxy #2k15

"The greatest gift of life is friendship, and I have received it." :)

Assalamualaikum and hi earthlingss! Well since i posted nothing on my blog like already few months (lol), i could finally spend some times to post one today! Yay? Yay! xD And yupp today's topic is gonna be a Galphaxy #2k15! 

Galphaxy #2k15-- literally the best class i've ever been to. Sounds cliché or cheeky? Well you'll know how wonderful it is to be in 5 Alpha this year. I mean i'm not actually proud of myself that i'm in 5 Alpha or i'm not writing this because i wanna brag about my classmates, well actually i mostly feel like a couch potato among my classmates since i really adore each one of them. Even though i don't talk much (yup i'm so so soooo quiet in the class..i mean, i'm too shy to start the conversation with them hahaha), they are still kind towards me, they're still helpful, cheerful and i must say they're the most generous calssmates i've ever had. And actually 5 Alpha is not like what most people think-- study all the time, serious & stuffs. Yup to be honest i did feel the same way when i was in 4 Beta, but whoopss..i was wrong. They're so funny, they make jokes like most of the time! And they could even make fun of other students and teachers too. Well guess what? They're so energetic! Or should i say hyper? Because 5 Alpha is actually the most noisy class i've ever been to, seriously! xD But whatever it is, they're still the best, and there's like no other people could beat their spirit on making the class so neat and clean! Hahaha. I still remember the first week struggling in 5 Alpha, i was so afraid that i couldn't adapt myself with them. But week after week, and month after month, i realised that they're so friendly, they didn't even care where do i came from, they treat me very well till now. I'm blessed to have them in my life, even i make things between us become awkward sometimes..ahaa I didn't mean to... Well i just hope that our friendship lasts longer, and i genuinely pray that we all could achieve our target for the upcoming SPM. Lets break a leg and pray hard so that someday we could meet again with some of you have become a successful doctor, a fair lawyer, a nice teacher..or maybe a loyal husband/wife? Uhuk uhukks who knows xD 

I guess thats all for now. I didn't want this post to look like we're gonna split right now since there are still much time to make precious memories together! Thanks guys for everything, i hope our memories together will sink deep in your cerebrum :p Byebye! Assalamualaikum :')